But sin crept in
Well, last night, I thought I was doin' okay...I figured sleep would take me...but sin crept in instead...essentially an encounter with P & M...time to start over again...I am NOT going to beat myself up so bad over this one.
Okay, that's all. I have an appointment with a new shrink today...deals specifically with Same-sex attraction...this should help, I hope. Wish me luck, and hope he's covered by my insurance.
posted by Peculiar 'Mormon' at 1:21 PM
3 Comments:
It's not my church, its the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I feel bad about having homosexual feelings because it's professed to be wrong in the Bible, because I've been taught it's wrong. I feel bad because these urges I have are not what I'd consider "good." My parents aren't too much of a factor, but they are still there in some remote part of my mind. I've got two older sisters who are out-of-the-closet lesbians, so they know how to (or how not to, I suppose) deal with having homosexual children. Only painful addition to the parent-factor, is that I've always been the "golden child" of the family...and they let me know that too...I've got a big burden on my back when it comes to living up to people's expectations, a burden I am currently trying to shake.
19 October, 2005 15:02
Good luck. Im always here if you need to talk you know.
20 October, 2005 22:15
You know how to be truly happy? Don't try to be something you're not...follow your heart. Heavenly Father knew what he was doing when he put those feelings in your heart. He wants you to be happy the way you are. I know I can't convince you to finally accept that you're gay and there's no reason to change it, but I just wanted to tell you how happy I am finally being out to my family and friends back in Utah. Good Luck
26 November, 2005 14:25
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