Asleep
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I’m tired and i
I want to go to bed
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don’t try to wake me in the morning
’cause I will be gone
Don’t feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up
On my own anymore
Sing to me
Sing to me
I don’t want to wake up
On my own anymore
Don’t feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go
There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well ...
Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...
posted by Peculiar 'Mormon' at 11:40 PM
6 Comments:
As I have said before, please get help...please get to somewhere safe where there are others who can help you. Go to the hospital, call the Trevor Project again, go wherever you need to. Your life has value, even if it may not seem like that right now. Your life can get better; it will take time, I know, but it WILL get better!
Please e-mail me if you need to talk.
10 June, 2006 07:29
I'm so sorry to read another hint of the terrible pain I know you must be feeling. It sounds like it may be getting to be more than you feel like you can handle. Sometimes this happens. But Mark is right, when things get that bad you need to get help so you aren't handling it on your own. You can get through this with the right help. Call the Trevor Project again if you need to (they won't get tired of hearing from you), or try another hotline, or if you might urgently need face to face medical help, call 911 or go to the emergency room.
You've already made a good start by talking with Jeff from the Trevor Project, and I'm really glad you're still letting us blog readers hear from you. Keep up the good work, and keep connecting to anyone who can help you through this. It's a real and important accomplishment to make the connections you need. You are, after all, saving a life.
Here's a web page that makes sense to me, if you haven't seen it:
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Please keep doing what you need to do to stay safe.
10 June, 2006 13:53
I wish there was some way I could convince you that suicide is not good option. God loves you very much no matter who you are. Don't let anybody else (including yourself) convince you otherwise because it just isn't true. There are so many worse things one could be besides Mormon and gay. I'm sure you're a good person of great worth, but YOU have to believe it. I know when a person is suffering from depression, words like these ring hollow, but I want you to know I am absolutely sure they are true.
10 June, 2006 14:23
My prayers are with you.
Even in the most dark of times there is still light to be found. I hope you see that there are people here reaching out to support you.
I understand how you are feeling, and I just want you to know that from what I've read, you are an incredible person.
I can't wait to hear more from you.
14 June, 2006 12:19
Dude, you are scaring folks. It's not fair to do this to everybody. Really. You feel like nobody cares about you, but here's person after person who tells you that your life has meaning, who sends me e-mails saying that they don't even know you but they are worried about you, and who tell you to please go get help. And you ignore them. So who is it that doesn't care about whom here? Find some feeling for others and go get some help before you do something totally asinine. Seriously. If you've ever been any kind of friend, you will do this.
15 June, 2006 01:32
I hope you're (relatively) ok. I've been thinking of you. If I may, speaking for myself, address the issue of fairness that Jokey Smurf brought up, I'd say fairness is not relevant right now. If it were, I think the far greater issue would be fairness to you, not to the people you know. My dad had a heart attack once, and it caused me some inconvenience, but I didn't think he was being unfair to me! It should be the same way with serious mental illnesses. Unfair or not isn't the issue; getting through them is.
As we've all said, getting help is very important at a time like this. You've done a lot already, getting treated for depression, finding a therapist, calling the Trevor Project, and I'm sure other things I've forgotten or you haven't mentioned. Keep it up. It's a process that take time and (as I'm sure you know) all the effort you can manage. Speaking of your therapist, is he helping, and treating this situation appropriately? I ask because you haven't mentioned him recently. If not, don't hesitate to find somebody better for you. I know it isn't easy, but maybe one of the hotlines can recommend someone, or you could get in touch with the local NAMI chapter (www.nami.org). I don't think they make recommendations as an organization, but you can go to one of their support meetings and ask the members who might be able to help. There may be good non-NAMI support groups in your area too.
Do let us know how you're doing when you can, but no pressure--this isn't about us. Making sure you do what you need to is the important thing. Getting through something like this is a big accomplishment, although it can be hard to appreciate until later. But it makes a difference in your life afterwards, in ways that I would find hard to describe in the space available. It's hard (much more so for you than it was for me, from the sound of things), but very worth it.
17 June, 2006 00:58
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