I'll be Honest
I'll be honest.
My heart's kind of, pretty much, broken.
And I'm not sure why i'm going to wake up tomorrow.
posted by Peculiar 'Mormon' at 11:59 PM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
My heart's kind of, pretty much, broken.
And I'm not sure why i'm going to wake up tomorrow.
About Me
- Name: Peculiar 'Mormon'
- Location: Seattle, Washington, United States
I've decided to leave this blog up as a means of sorting through my thoughts...you just so happen to be along for the ride if you're reading...I don't update so often, but a recent want to re-blog has inspired me to revamp things. So here's my problem: I'm gay, and I come from a Mormon family...I don't practice anymore, but still have a great deal of respect for the church. I tried serving a mission...It's a funny thing, my mission. I received my mission call in late Feb. '05, to Bulgaria, reported in May, and came home in July (all 2005), on "medical grounds," but that's only a part-truth...I came home because I couldn't handle the feeling of hypocrisy in telling people what to believe, when I wasn't sure I believed it anymore. It's only now, three years later, that I've reconciled my feelings of depression, have finally come out of the closet, and decided to live life with some dignity, and do it as happily as I possibly can...and I'll tell you: I'm doing pretty well so far.
Previous Posts
- Blue-Black Eyes and Dead-man's Neckties
- Once Again, I Get the Shaft
- Tilt
- And Now I Reallize Why
- I keep making this to-do list, but nothing gets cr...
- So For Now, I'm Alive
- I'd Rather not be Brought Here
- Karma?
- And Things Will Work Out in the End
- The Gradual Descent Into a Life I Never Meant...
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3 Comments:
Right now, I wish that I could be there to give you a big hug and listen. If you are feeling desperate and like you might hurt yourself, go someplace where you know you will get support and feel safe...go to the hospital if you have to, call a distress line and talk, do whatever it takes...you can get through this, and things can and will get better. I have had some black moments, too, but with the help of professionals and the support of my parents, I was able to pull through, and am much happier today. You can make it too.
If you need to talk, please e-mail me.
25 May, 2006 05:28
YOU ARE TOO WONDERFUL TO PUT YOURSELF THROUGH THIS!!!
I understand your pain, I really really do. But please know that there are other ways to find peace and happiness. Don't look to the darker side of life, look to the good things.
If you found love once, you can and will find it again.
Please email me if you need anything at all. I'd totally be willing to talk if that's something that would make you feel better.
Hang in there. I respect you and hope to hear more from you.
25 May, 2006 06:38
Oh My God. P.M. I cry for you. I die for you. You are amazing. I stumbled upon you and now all I want to do is hold you while you cry. I sent you one comment and you didn't respond. But by jove, we are so exactly the same in this. I am in the MIDDLE of the exact same struggle, and everything that you say I wish that I had said it. You just have a way of putting it in words. The knife-edge analogy and being damned either way. That's me. Feeling like muddy water in a puddle. Oh man, it kills me because it's how I feel. I'm so glad to not be alone, but I'd really like to know more about you and talk to you. Please feel free to email me: colbyjackcheez3@yahoo.com
Or just hit me up on aim or Y! msngr, I use the same name. I really want to send you something I wrote I think you can relate to. Don't isolate yourself. I'm reaching for you, PM.
25 May, 2006 13:48
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